Master

Maybe I’m just being lonely,

Or maybe I’m still overacting…

Overdramatic fool… I know.

Maybe I never deserved you,

A dream way too good to be true.

How can my passion for you burn so hot still,

How can I still wait, even now?

Maybe I’m overreacting,

Or maybe I’m just slow…

You still have me guessing myself…

I still need some closure.

Hey, master, I still wear the collar,

Fall asleep with it and wake up crying…

The spikes in my flesh cutting deep,

Feeling them over and over again.

The ring that I had, remember that?

Burns on my finger, I can’t even look at it right.

It hurts me, still, late at night,

And nightmares of demons returned…

He tries, tries so hard…

But he cannot send them away.

Oh how I wish to wake up so cleaned of it all…

So… numb that I cannot feel you inside.

So clueless that I do not remember how it went…

So clueless that you’re erased from me…

What am I saying? I never wished that!

Do not erase yourself from me, please I beg.

Maybe I am over-thinking this..

Maybe… I’m lonely,

Or ugly,

Or dumb!

That’s it!

That’s exactly it!

That’s all of the above…

Whatever it is, I cannot erase you…

As much as I could,

As much as id wish…

Master, still here, waiting…

In the same goddamn spot you left me in..

Still crying like crazy, please stop the tears….

Please… this is my last plea.